will 2017 end soon?

i won't lie. this year has been the shittiest i think i've ever had. it's been emotionally, physically, & financially draining & there have really been no signs of it letting up. the spider incident ruined my summer, the hospital bills took our savings, we lost our smallest dog suddenly, the vet bills took our credit cards, the work on our house that we thought was exciting has turned out to be a nightmare that won't go away & my depression hit full force (of course!) during all of it.

i say that to say; bare with me. there have been a lot of things i’ve wanted to come here to say & update on but also, if i'm being honest, it's been a real struggle to get out of bed to work on any house projects myself. i've just now gotten motivated enough the last week. so. a few things.

the first being that after our contractor offered us a price on our house i realized just how much i care about the integrity of it. between realizing how much i truly love my little piece of shit, it’s also not a realistic time for us to even consider moving. i will always have that spirit in me that wants to leave, that wants to start over, that looks for change & wants to experience new things. it’s a part of who i am. but i’m also not a dumbass. ryan is in a really great place professionally & really loves what he’s doing right now. i want him to see it through & really, i want to see our house through. the changes i make, i want to make for us, as if it's for the long haul, whether it is or isn't. that means that my list of goals just got a shit ton bigger. oy.

second, we’re not painting the exterior of the house. if you want to know why & don’t care to listen to me go off on a tangent, you can ask me why sometime. in the long run, as exciting as i thought that was for our house, i’m glad it’s not happening. turns out, no matter how arrogant you are, you really shouldn’t paint old bricks. soft-fired bricks (generally bricks before the 1960s) need to be able to breathe. when you paint them, moisture gets trapped inside & eventually, the paint will peel & the bricks will deteriorate. so, educate yourself! instead of paint, come spring, i will be power washing the exterior & redoing the mortar. i feel really good about it & i feel really confident about that decision.

third, we’re still waiting for the insurance work on our house to be done. it’s been a very good learning experience for so so many reasons & i honestly hope i never have to deal with a contractor ever again, although, i’ll be much better prepared next time if i have to. it's been a much longer & more frustrating 3 months than i expected but our gutters finally went up this week and holy. shit. i was not prepared for how happy pieces of metal hanging off my house would make me.

it's funny how things can change so much in a year. one thing that hasn't changed is my dedication to the house. to make it right. to honor it. so that when we do leave it, somebody doesn't find it a worthy candidate to gut the entire thing, rip out the original windows & vault the ceilings.

oh, & happy thanksgiving!


new roof

we came home last month to a brand new roof. turns out, our roof had 4 layers of shingles on top of plank sheathing, not decking. apparently, it’s way too much to ask for the previous owners to do anything correctly. our contractor said that the amount of weight on our roof was more than a dumpster could even haul. WHAT THE HELL PEOPLE.

our old, sad, sagging roof is now so very happy & up-to-code. we went with a “storm cloud” patterned shingle at a recommendation from our contractor who has used them a lot & seen a lot of positive feedback when it comes to resale (always a plus).

the roof is exciting & all but DUDES. the next part is so much better. like the answer to so many of our nightmares. all the fascia is being replaced next week. i know, it doesn’t sound all that exciting. but in our world, this is huge. part of the reason that our roof was out of code was that there was no drip edge (or flashing) between the roof line & the fascia. this means two things. one. our gutters were useless. there was no point in ever having them. cue all our tears after realizing all the time we’ve spent cleaning them. (okay fine, we didn’t clean them all that often but it still stressed us out.) two. every time it rained the water was just running directly down the side of our house, slowly rotting all our fascia. rotted fascia makes it super easy for squirrels to eat huge holes into your attic & live up there for 8 years, driving you insane in the middle of the night & haunting you with nightmares of creatures coming down into your bed while you sleep. rotted wood on the outside of your house is also ten million times more embarrassing than a roof that has too many layers. that work will hopefully start this week & then PAINT.

fuck-ing paint y’all. like the entire house. bricks & all.

i know people have very strong opinions on painted brick. there are definitely strong camps on each side & i get them both. i love brick… if you have pretty brick. our brick is in horrible condition & apparently, nobody thought it was important to tape off anything ever before painting the gutters, windows, shutters, etc. there are literally old gutter outlines running down our house all the way around. the previous owners will never stop amazing me.

we picked paint colors last week & i’m so goddamn anxious.


so before long, our little house is going to go from this (so sad, so overgrown, so swallowed by trees, so shitty)...

to this (new roof, trimmed trees & everything else still shitty)...

to this! just use your imagination & add some new landscaping & grass...

the color we picked is called "barely white" which i love. i didn't want to do stark white even though i love an all white exterior. i felt like i needed to pay my tudor style house some respect & go with the traditional three color scheme. 

now. on to the debate. those windows. my plan for two years has been to paint our window frames black; just the frames, not the trim. traditionally, the window frames should be darker than the trim but i also just really love the look of a light house with dark windows. my contractor thinks they need to be white to match the trim. so tell me. who is wrong?