closets & trash

i've not been on my house game for a couple of months (obviously) but all of a sudden i hit a huge surge of energy last week & feel like there isn't enough time or money to keep up with my thoughts/plans/actions. maybe it's that spring cleaning bug that people get? it's like "nesting" for normal, non-pregnant people? well. whatever it is; i have it. my mind is racing with house projects & i'm trying to work on keeping myself focused on one thing at a time so that i don't get too overwhelmed. luckily i'm pretty good at finding satisfaction in being able to mark off just one task (big or small). to me, it's easy to find joy in the fact that it's one less thing staring at me, even though if you zoom out & look at the big picture, it's so so tiny & seems like it doesn't matter. i'm trying to get ryan on that train of thought so he doesn't lose his mind helping me in the yard. he has been so much help getting some of my least favorite things done (i.e. anything outside). we spent saturday cleaning our garage which - is a big fucking deal for me to even go out there. i hate that garage. i just imagine it full of poisonous spiders & critters, just waiting to get me right as i walk in. i also imagine it collapsing in on my head & nobody makes it out alive. when it's a mess (like it has been for years now), it heightens my fear. needless to say, i don't store things in there like a normal person. who needs to keep paint in their garage when they have empty kitchen cabinets that work just fine? right? when we bought our house, we spent 75% of our time in our garage. we had all of our friends & family over weekly, battling each other in ping-pong, grilling hot dogs & sitting out by the chiminea. somewhere along the way, we lost our excitement for having people over & our garage slowly turned into a ghost town where we would occasionally throw shit we needed to donate or put out on the curb for big trash day (aka shopping day in our hood). i didn't take a before picture but i wish i would have. kind of. i’d probably be too embarrassed to show what it looked like, how much shit we pulled out of there & how little actually goes back in there but man, it feels so good to have it cleaned out & organized. when ryan got his boat, we had to make room for it & now we have room for the boat & still have room to pull one of the cars in if it storms. plus i know where everything is & i’m not AS terrified to retrieve a rake now. we pulled everything that was too big or too much of a pain to load up & donate (i.e. a washer/dryer, bikes, furniture, etc.) out to the curb & someone took everything within 30 minutes. you're welcome neighbor.

that project then spiraled to trying to get as much as we could out to curb by wednesday so yard work was next in our sights. it's not like we won't have the opportunity again next month but we know ourselves well enough to know that we need to strike while the iron is hot. & right now, it's hot. we've bagged so many goddamn leaves & i'm pretty sure that will never end, but progress is progress & every single bag makes me feel better & better. so for the last two nights we’ve come home from work, grabbed a quick bite & then headed outside to work on the yard until the sun goes down. what feels like a thousand bags later, we only have the front mostly done but damn, it feels good.

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once the sun sets, i've been heading inside to finish up my closet. i'm not going to lie, i've been using our bar as my closet for weeks now. i've had to apologize to 1 too many guests for why all of my clothes are in the kitchen & it had been long enough that i actually got used to getting dressed for work in the living room. it's fine guys. it's the new thing. the reality is that i removed all my clothes, did a lot of prep work on the molding, primed it & then let it sit for a while because i was completely unmotivated.

but then i cleaned up the doorknob & felt an urgency to get the door hung so i could admire them all the time which meant i really just needed to finish the whole closet. my light has been broken for..... years? the lightbulb doesn't stay in place & i get really sick of grabbing a step-ladder every day to screw it back in so i've just gotten used to it being dark. i'm not sure if it's just because i'm not used to having a light on or if it's the once yellow, now white walls but it's so bright. & beautiful. & organized. & very very monochrome. & once again, i hate myself for taking so long on such a simple project.

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i know i never did an "after" of the bedroom. it's because i was waiting on the doors to be done. well, i just now hung those doors & one of them doesn't close so i have some adjusting to do. also, now i think i should finish the windows before i really show you what it looks like because with everything else done, the window frames stick out like a sore thumb. it's never-ending.

please send wine.

2017

i have the luxury of working somewhere that gives me a paid vacation from before christmas to after the new year. every year i make grand plans of knocking out projects around the house. the first year we lived here my grand plan was to refinish the hardwoods. seven years later, those floors haven’t been touched & i’ve realized since that i don’t want to diy that task anyway. this year i thought i’d at least finish the projects that i’d already started (bedroom doors, closet & hallway) but then ryan was able to take off the entire break with me & working on the house was the furthest thing from my mind. instead, we decided to throw caution to the wind & leave town for a few days. we put kansas city in our gps, left our dogs in the care of my sister & spent 3 days exploring somewhere new & dreaming of our future.

we really enjoyed kc. it’s definitely somewhere that i’d enjoy going back to but the 4-5 hour drive almost killed us. it was the slowest drive of our lives. kansas, you suck. anyway, between the holidays, family, some needed one-on-one with ryan, mini-vacations & sickness, the house was left abandoned. the break was good though & even now, i’m not too worried about working on it. i’ll get to it eventually but right now our schedules have been so busy (busy = overwhelmed which to me is having 2 or more things taking up my evenings each week) that i just can’t spend my free time on the house. with that said, i made myself a house related new years resolution, something that i never do because who likes to set themselves up for failure? when we were in kansas city, we stumbled upon a coffee shop, blip, in an old warehouse. upon entering, we were welcomed by a family-owned business with the cutest little pit bull pup running around. we lovingly referred to it as “if weldon jack sold coffee”. it was coffee, family, friends, motorcycles & pit bulls. i mean really, does it get better? the barista was very friendly & immediately reminded us of our old friend dave, who lived with us briefly way back when. he asked us where we were from & then responded to our answer with “how is it there?”. ryan & i both looked at each other & got a little awkward with how to answer. it was such a simple question but the answer is difficult for us. we fumbled around with some answers about how the city is trying but it still has a long way to go to be & feel like kc did. in other words, he wanted to know why we loved it (assuming we do since we live there) & we gave him a general answer that had nothing to do with us. what he said next has stuck with me & bothered me since. he asked, “so what keeps you there?”. it took me aback. i couldn’t believe that this stranger had seen my unhappiness in such a short conversation & i felt insecure immediately. i also felt dumb because some stranger in a coffee shop just called out our bullshit.

don’t get me wrong, i’m not saying that oklahoma city is a bad place to live. it’s not. it’s our home, it’s where we were raised, it’s where our families live & i’m sure that that will always mean something special to us but oklahoma city is not where we fit anymore. we outgrew this place & we knew it a long time ago.

for the last several years we’ve had the same conversation about what we want for our future. when we can, we want to sell our house, move to an apartment while we save money & decide where we want to move. this is still what we want. we both dream of a new life, a simpler one, out of our comfort zone & in a new landscape. this year, i want to work towards that dream. we always say we are. we always tell each other that this is the year we buckle down, get out of debt & save the money we need to fix the house. we speak, we listen, we go on about our lives. i don’t want to do that anymore. this year i decided that i want to do my part & work towards getting our house in order to sell it, as much as i can. there are a lot of issues, some of which will require greater amounts of money that we don’t have right now but in the meantime, i want to put the right work in to the house that will get us closer to our goal.

nobody should live life doing things that don’t bring them joy & fulfillment so thank you to the barista that called out my shit & got me on the right track.

westport flea, kansas city, mo, december 29, 2016
westport flea, kansas city, mo, december 29, 2016

bathroom: before & after

let's just jump right into it because i'm excited. the feeling you get once a room is finally finished is indescribable. i am very happy with how it turned out & it will do just fine until we can put some big money into it later on for a full remodel.

door

shelves

sink

the black door is my favorite, let's just not talk about how it looks from the hallway ( it's very bad right now). one day i'll have a sink with storage so the cart will no longer be necessary. speaking of the cart- i spray painted it & learned that i don't really enjoy spray painting. now that i know, i probably would've opted to just buy a new cart in black for $40. the only thing missing is a hamper. i'm not putting one back in there until i can be 100% happy with my choice so for now, we'll be hamper-less. so that's it! i hope you enjoy it as much as i do (not really)! i think i have to go finish my bedroom now since ryan actually asked me yesterday if i planned on ever having a bedroom door again or not. oops.

sources: shower curtain / bath mat / turkish bath towels 1 & 2 / hand towel / cart / vanity light / trash can / towel hooks / tp holder

 

bathroom: week 4

WHAT. realizing it's been four weeks makes me feel reaaaal dumb. side note. i was going through flickr to download the pictures i needed for this post & the "auto-tag" that flickr put on them was "hallway" & "monochrome". HA.

the important lesson i learned this week is that having a good electric drill makes life a lot easier. iiii have a piece of shit drill that can't even make one hole in my stupid walls without dying 3-4 times. what should've been a simple half hour project quickly became a two and a half hour project. shoot. me. needless to say, a new drill was immediately put at the top of my wishlist.

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i didn't give up & got the job done so that we no longer have to remember to grab our towels from the hallway before we hop in the shower. i had a really hard time picking out towel hooks but i'm glad i landed on these. there are so many options out there that it's a little overwhelming. i also really hate towel rings but i kept second-guessing myself that it would be weird to only have hooks. in the end, i decided that i wanted it to be a very simple & cohesive look so 3 hooks lined up with the medicine cabinet knob is what i went with. and i don't care how "on trend" turkish towels are. they are the best. i don't see myself ever buying another kind of towel. the hand towels are new & they were really cheap so the verdict is still out on those but i love my bath towels from dandelion textiles & cacala.

this weekend i need to man up & finish this shit.

it starts with finishing this door*.

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*the paint under the white on ALL the bathroom woodwork was pink. that beige color was UNDER the pink. who were these aliens that previously lived here??

have a good weekend guys. IT'S FRIDAY.

 

how long can it take to paint a bathroom?

you'd think i had kids getting in my way for how long a project takes me. i honestly can't explain it. i get 16 hours of uninterrupted time each week with ryan's new work schedule & i use that time to work on the house & yet still, the bathroom isn't done. in conclusion, i am slow as fuck. also, why does it take so. many. coats of paint to make a wall white? it can't just be me can it? the good news is that it's almost done. i've hit the point where it's so close that i'm so anxious to finish up all the details. like putting the door back on. although not having a bathroom door is a really great excuse to not have anyone over. unless you have friends that don't mind & in that case, you have bigger problems.

clean slate

...to this...

so close! (hi hank!)

two major things happened that have given me all the feels (besides the new toilet).

  1. i FINALLY got the goddamn window open after being painted shut for god knows how long. people that paint windows shut; shame on you! just don't do it. ever. this was the 7th & last window that i've had to fix after being painted shut.

2. NEW LIGHT! we weren't planning on doing this so soon but then i realized that it seemed silly to paint around the 4 light vanity bar, just to have to paint that area later on when we did replace it. i was concerned that it wouldn't give off enough light but it's great & you can't beat getting a nice vanity light for under 100 bones.

* BONUS: i'd also like to introduce you to my new best friend, the mixing mate. i need one for every gallon of paint i ever use from here on out. i highly recommend it for the pour spout alone.

 

things left to-do:

  • roll on one more coat of paint
  • finish scraping the door
  • paint door black & install
  • install new towel hooks
  • install new toilet paper holder
  • buy shelf brackets (aka figure out how to get them)
  • apply polyurethane to wood shelves
  • install shelves above toilet
  • drink a lot of wine & celebrate

hopefully, i'll see you back here soon with a mostly finished bathroom redo.

lovely little shitter

i swear i was about to pick up the putty knife & get to work on the bedroom doors so the room that we spend 90% of our time in could be pretty & mostly finished but then.... our toilet broke. & my gears shifted back to the bathroom. you know what isn't fun? having to manually fill your toilet tank with water because it stopped filling itself & you're not a plumber. it's also not fun to sit on a toilet that feels like it's going to fall through the floor. have i mentioned our toilet is slightly unstable?

once i got over being mad that our toilet broke & i would now have to pay for an unexpected expense, i was probably a little too excited at the thought that "hey, now is the time to make where we shit just a little more pretty & efficient". don't even act like we don't all shit. i appreciate the hell out of a pretty toilet & although it's not the top of the line fanciness that you see all over the nice blogs, it sure as hell beats the beast that was there before.

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to everyone who's ass has touched our toilet seat, you're welcome. you can now do your thing without having to balance the toilet at the same time. okay, so our floor is still un-level but it's still significantly better than it was.

things left on the to-do:

  • new shower curtain
  • install new toilet paper holder (ordered!)
  • install new hand towel hook (ordered!)
  • replace trash can
  • spray paint ikea cart black
  • finish painting
  • install new toilet
  • have a plumber fix our leaky faucet & toilet line
  • paint door black

bedroom doors, you'll just have to wait. the rest of the bathroom needs to rise up to meet the new toilet's standards. after all, what's the point of shitting pretty if the only thing pretty is what you're shitting on?