bathroom: before & after

let's just jump right into it because i'm excited. the feeling you get once a room is finally finished is indescribable. i am very happy with how it turned out & it will do just fine until we can put some big money into it later on for a full remodel.

door

shelves

sink

the black door is my favorite, let's just not talk about how it looks from the hallway ( it's very bad right now). one day i'll have a sink with storage so the cart will no longer be necessary. speaking of the cart- i spray painted it & learned that i don't really enjoy spray painting. now that i know, i probably would've opted to just buy a new cart in black for $40. the only thing missing is a hamper. i'm not putting one back in there until i can be 100% happy with my choice so for now, we'll be hamper-less. so that's it! i hope you enjoy it as much as i do (not really)! i think i have to go finish my bedroom now since ryan actually asked me yesterday if i planned on ever having a bedroom door again or not. oops.

sources: shower curtain / bath mat / turkish bath towels 1 & 2 / hand towel / cart / vanity light / trash can / towel hooks / tp holder

 

holiday feelings

christmas, 1990. little jana, already grumpy.

i've come to terms with the fact that i am missing a lot of "emotions" in my brain that most other people seem to have. i am not sentimental. i'd rather risk hurting someone's feelings than bullshitting with them. the only person that gives me "warm & fuzzies" is my husband & it comes in the weirdest ways. i don't understand the feeling of a holiday feeling special. it's just a day, isn't' it? thanksgiving doesn't make me feel any more thankful than i did the day before. christmas doesn't make me want to spend time with people any more than it does the day after. easter definitely doesn't make me want to go to church. valentine's day doesn't make me feel  more in love. paid holidays make me thankful for a day off work & time with ryan & that's about it. i'm not sure i understand why a big deal is made of all them. i don't particularly remember ever being really into holidays but i'm sure as a kid i probably enjoyed them more than i do now. i know this is nothing new; there are a lot of scrooges in this world but when you're the only one in your family & friends group, it can get uncomfortable.

i stopped decorating for christmas 3 years ago because i've never enjoyed it & finally realized that i was definitely not doing it for myself. every year growing up, we had the same tradition as everyone else that celebrates christmas. you decorate for christmas the day after thanksgiving. a lot of people look back fondly on that tradition & that's why they continue to do it their entire lives. me? i look back & remember the yearly dread of having to go up in the attic, pull everything down (the joys of being the smallest, youngest & most helpful) & then putting that damn 8-foot tree up, limb by limb. i hated it. the only thing i ever wanted to do was put up this one little nativity scene we had. no idea why. after the decorating was done, i then had weeks to let my anxiety boil about all of the christmas gatherings to be had in my future. that has never changed. as i've gotten older, i've stopped going to most things that aren't for someone who i cherish extra. i'm not going to go to a work party just because there is one. free food is not worth it. i'm not going to go to a funeral because i knew someone who died. funerals don't bring me closure. all they do is trigger my anxiety & i feel like that's definitely something that is a personal choice that nobody should have any say in. i'm not going to go to an extended family wedding or celebration just because my mother asks me to. listening to snide comments & jokes from family members that i have nothing in common with, while trying to play nice & smile for my mother's sake is not how i want to spend my time. it makes a lot of people mad. they don't get it. my mom thinks it's my dad's fault & my dad thinks i'm just a dick but truth be told, when it comes down to it, i just cherish myself & my time too much to put myself in situations that make me miserable. hanging out with a bunch of trump supporters equals my idea of miserable. joking, not joking?

the second worst thing about christmas (& birthdays) in particular is gifts. please don't buy me gifts & please don't expect me to buy you gifts. i am not a gift giver & never have been. it doesn't make me feel good to give them & most of the time unless it's something i really need, i don't feel good about getting them either. (there's a 99% chance that if you buy me an object, it will end up in my donation pile anyway so you're just wasting your money in most cases.) on that note, why the hell do we expect people to open gifts in front of us? it can be so traumatizing to a person & here we are, making kids do this from the time they're born. i remember being in elementary school & always feeling like i'm dying inside every time i had to open gifts at a party. my 16th birthday? my mom threw me a huge party & gave me a car in front of all of my friends & family. i remember the feelings from that day like it was yesterday. that panic i had when i realized what was happening & that i was going to have to quickly come up with some sort of vocal/physical reaction to getting a car. i was crazy excited about the car but it didn't matter because i "didn't show it". saying thank you & giving a hug isn't the expected reaction. people want some yelling & jumping. i don't yell & i definitely don't jump. people: meet jana, a guaranteed lifetime of disappointing reactions & interactions. jana: meet holidays. your time to really shine.

i say all this to say, if there's someone in your family or friends group that doesn't participate in things that you think they should, they probably have a reason for it. you might not like their answer but it doesn't matter what you think. we all just need to do what feels right for us & sometimes, that's going to piss people off but in the end, your life is yours & nobody else's so fuck it.

soooo.... happy holidays!

psst. i'm finishing my bathroom tonight so once i have some natural light to take pictures of it (i.e. saturday), i'll be back for the reveal!

bathroom: week 4

WHAT. realizing it's been four weeks makes me feel reaaaal dumb. side note. i was going through flickr to download the pictures i needed for this post & the "auto-tag" that flickr put on them was "hallway" & "monochrome". HA.

the important lesson i learned this week is that having a good electric drill makes life a lot easier. iiii have a piece of shit drill that can't even make one hole in my stupid walls without dying 3-4 times. what should've been a simple half hour project quickly became a two and a half hour project. shoot. me. needless to say, a new drill was immediately put at the top of my wishlist.

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i didn't give up & got the job done so that we no longer have to remember to grab our towels from the hallway before we hop in the shower. i had a really hard time picking out towel hooks but i'm glad i landed on these. there are so many options out there that it's a little overwhelming. i also really hate towel rings but i kept second-guessing myself that it would be weird to only have hooks. in the end, i decided that i wanted it to be a very simple & cohesive look so 3 hooks lined up with the medicine cabinet knob is what i went with. and i don't care how "on trend" turkish towels are. they are the best. i don't see myself ever buying another kind of towel. the hand towels are new & they were really cheap so the verdict is still out on those but i love my bath towels from dandelion textiles & cacala.

this weekend i need to man up & finish this shit.

it starts with finishing this door*.

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*the paint under the white on ALL the bathroom woodwork was pink. that beige color was UNDER the pink. who were these aliens that previously lived here??

have a good weekend guys. IT'S FRIDAY.

 

how long can it take to paint a bathroom?

you'd think i had kids getting in my way for how long a project takes me. i honestly can't explain it. i get 16 hours of uninterrupted time each week with ryan's new work schedule & i use that time to work on the house & yet still, the bathroom isn't done. in conclusion, i am slow as fuck. also, why does it take so. many. coats of paint to make a wall white? it can't just be me can it? the good news is that it's almost done. i've hit the point where it's so close that i'm so anxious to finish up all the details. like putting the door back on. although not having a bathroom door is a really great excuse to not have anyone over. unless you have friends that don't mind & in that case, you have bigger problems.

clean slate

...to this...

so close! (hi hank!)

two major things happened that have given me all the feels (besides the new toilet).

  1. i FINALLY got the goddamn window open after being painted shut for god knows how long. people that paint windows shut; shame on you! just don't do it. ever. this was the 7th & last window that i've had to fix after being painted shut.

2. NEW LIGHT! we weren't planning on doing this so soon but then i realized that it seemed silly to paint around the 4 light vanity bar, just to have to paint that area later on when we did replace it. i was concerned that it wouldn't give off enough light but it's great & you can't beat getting a nice vanity light for under 100 bones.

* BONUS: i'd also like to introduce you to my new best friend, the mixing mate. i need one for every gallon of paint i ever use from here on out. i highly recommend it for the pour spout alone.

 

things left to-do:

  • roll on one more coat of paint
  • finish scraping the door
  • paint door black & install
  • install new towel hooks
  • install new toilet paper holder
  • buy shelf brackets (aka figure out how to get them)
  • apply polyurethane to wood shelves
  • install shelves above toilet
  • drink a lot of wine & celebrate

hopefully, i'll see you back here soon with a mostly finished bathroom redo.